I'm very frustrated right now. With the man. The institution. What the hell is going on? I'm trying to create positive change on campus and I feel like I'm being blocked on all sides. Like there is some force that wants to silence me but not let me know I'm being silenced. I'm being put to a task with no ability to move forward, but they are trying to convince me that I'm an integral part of the team. I'm being humored. That's the word I'm looking for.
I understand that I'm loud and crass and tell it like it is. I complain about things and I'll point out the shit that is going on. Hence this blog right? But I'm also trying to help fix thing. Trying to help keep other medical students from going through the same shithole experience that I went through for the past four years. I want people to be better, I want this institution to improve and thrive. I want this to be a place we can all be proud of. But my methods aren't as PC as people would like them to be. So I get black listed.
There is something going down on campus that I should be involved in. I've been trying to create a mentoring program for TWO YEARS now, and no one has stepped up to help in any way. I've been met with resistance. And now here is a group of other students popping up, trying to take over my baby and do it their way, without letting me be part of it. It's a conspiracy I tell you, and I usually don't believe in conspiracy theories.
Well, if you don't want my help you aint gonna get it! Just tell me to my face and stop wasting my time, because I have other things I could be doing right now! Like catching up on old episodes of Friends. And going to the gym. And RELAXING. So what's the dealio?
Hmmm...
something sketchy is going on around these parts! And I won't rest until I get to the bottom of it. Actually that's not true. I'm just going to stop trying to help and let them figure it out for themselves. Don't want my help? Fine, you won't get it.
